These are the words of former police sergeant Ron Fenton, at his treatment by Victoria Police after being shot on the job in the head in 1984.
He was off work for four months but after a lot of rehabilitation he went back out on the road.
Twenty-eight years later, he was forced out because he was suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).
“I had absolutely no help at all,” he said. “My entire treatment I had from the police force when I first got shot was two appointments with the police psychologist.
“[After that] no-one bothered to do any follow up and I was left to fend for my own career, was given no career guidance no assistance whatsoever.”
He went on to say, “After rehabilitating and getting myself back on the street and asking for help, in fact crying and begging for help, the response was: tough, you’re not worth it, get out.”
Last week Victoria Police released a report into the mental health of police, the findings were damning.
Another police member was quoted in the report as saying, “Give me a dead body to look at over a poor manager to deal with anytime.”
How does this relate to Ambulance Victoria, an organisation with an absolutely disgraceful record of staff suicide? Well they have employed several of the managers in Victoria Police who presided over the disgraceful treatment of members.
The current managers of both People and Culture (which encompasses the ironically named Health Safety and Welfare department) and the Ambulance counselling unit have come over from VicPol.
If they presided over such a toxic police culture, just how much damage can they do with the already disgraceful record at AV?
It seems not only Police Minister Graeme Ashton will have his work cut out for him, but so will Ambulance Victoria CEO Tony Walker